Anonymous asked: how did you and marlon meet?

Marlon and i met in advance with my ex boyfriend, they were friends, i’d sometimes talk to him on chat about generally life, we related so well. At the time my ex boyfriend and i would fight ever so much and marlon was just there to listen. Kind of like that saying ‘treat your girl well or another boy will do it for you’. The day my ex broke up with me i did some things i regret ever so much and marlon just happened to ask on that day how i was doing, i explained what had happened and he said he wanted to see me as soon as possible. This was probably the first time we’d probably met, before it was just like “hello”. The first time we met i honestly fell in love with his personality, he’s the easiest person to get along with. He had to go to school for a little while before but he said he’d call me when he was home at around one and he’d come gather me. First thing that he did was hug me, an endless hug. We just walked and spoke about things, we ended up walking to his home and i met his family the very first day we met, little did i know marlon claims he liked me already that day, as did i. He didn’t want it to show so he’d talk about how he was most likely getting back with his ex, i was kind of like “Oh”. It sucked though because i was just so confused by everything and i felt like i couldn’t be sad because i barely knew him, it just made no sense. We just hung out and he made me so much happier. At the time i wouldn’t talk to anyone, my mum had to leave me notes to communicate with me and i just hated everything. Marlon was the only thing that fixed me, he knew that too and kept asking if we could hang out, it ended up being every weekend. We’d also text non stop, i fell him sosoosos fast. I was scared though because i don’t ever get crushes, all the boys I’ve been with have liked me first and I’ve just given it a go, i’ve never liked someone first, never asked anyone out, never made the first move ect. One weekend at this party of a mutual friend we had we started talking because marlon didn’t really know anyone, i was ever so happy. I lost him at one stage  and found him talking to another girl, i felt so stupid because i thought there was a tiny chance he liked me, i felt so, so stupid for even believing it. Himself and this girl would keep calling me ‘cute’ and to me that was the ultimate friend zone word, the girl who’s cute but could never be anything more. They were so close at that party, if you didn’t know either of them you’d assume they had been together for a year. I kind of died and went and sat on a seat by myself all night. He came over at the end of the night and confirmed we were still hanging out that weekend, i wanted to say no in the sense that i was just so devastated. I just accepted that i was only a friend to him and we continued hanging out, my head was just set in ‘ill only ever be a friend’ mode. We’d have these cute moments were we’d get really close and be about to kiss, hold hands or he’d hug me from behind although me being me in friend world assumed these were accidents and i got really awkward about it all. Holding my hand to me was so scary, i was so beyond nervous, it was the equivalent for me of losing your virginity. It was all so new to me and i was just so nervous. I remember him holding my hand when we were watching Easy A and i thought he awkwardly slipped and didn’t want to admit it so went along with it, he then had to go outside for something and when he came back he held my hand again. That was when i kind of worked out that he meant it, dear lord i was happy, still so nervous but happy. He kept hinting out that he wanted to kiss me although i have this thing where i never kiss anyone without being with them because I’m scared to get too attached and be hurt. I’d keep brushing him off and he thought it was because i didn’t want to, i was just scared. We’d text again every day and he one day told me that he liked me, i chucked my phone at a wall due to excitement and forgot to reply saying i liked him too, i thought i made it really obvious in a bad way. Anyway we’ keep hanging out and one day he asked me to be his girlyfriend and i was sosososososos happy and taken back still feeling like i was never good enough to be seen in that way to him. I’m so happy, he’s so perfect. He makes the scars on my leg something to remember in a positive way, i wouldn’t have met him otherwise.

Anonymous asked: You have lovely music taste ;3. i love sitting and going through your play list aimlessly. x

thank you gorgeous :) this means ever so much, I’m glad you enjoy it

Anonymous asked: do you ever wag school?

never ever, i’m barely at school though, i’m always either sick or something is wrong with me