Oh my, thank you, that’s so kind of you! :-) I’m from Wollongong, NSW. It’s about an hour and a half car ride from Sydney!
I think you’r the cutest on my blog ;-)
Not at all, I mean since when should someone feel sorry for being sad. How can you be so heartless to first think “…Oh, they left me behind because they didn’t love me”. When you want to end your life, it’s kind of to them as though they’e boxed in. They don’t decide to end their life to be dead, they don’t think about the funeral or reaction to the people who find them, they just feel like there’s no escape for them and that everyone will understand. In a way a huge cry for help that’s just too late. Of course it’s a sad time being a loved one when a friend, child, parent etc… does leave the world and I suppose it’s a natural reaction to question whether you were to partially blame for not helping early. But to stand there and say “how dare you leave me, how dare you kill yourself” and mean it, is just disgusting. If anyone is reading this and feels as though they want to end their lives, please just talk to someone, or me even. Don’t wait until it’s too late. You’re not trapped, I know it feels as though that’s the way it is but it’s really not. Maybe things wont be the exact same but they can sure be lovely in a new form. I think if anything, people need to be more aware of the little signs and be more aware of their friends. Sometimes all it takes is a “are you really okay?” for someone to talk. Letting out the emotion of feeling trapped and worthless can be a huge cure and most of the time the people who are depressed or suicidal aren’t willing to ask for help. That’s why it’s everyone else’s duty to look after each other. As for the word ‘stupid’, I don’t even think that word can come into context with such horrific emotions. You’d be stupid to try and act like it’s all not there. I’ve never felt suicidal but I sure have felt low and I can surely say I can’t even imagine how horrible and twisted such an emotion would feel. I suppose for a lot of people who see suicide as selfish haven’t ever felt such a tragic emotion and so it seems easy to escape, easy to go on. Ive heard a lot of people react with “Why wouldn’t they just talk to someone”, and really, it’s not easy. I think those dealing with such emotion such as depression, suicide, anxiety, bipolar etc are some of the bravest people because you begin to lose yourself with mental diseases and there’s no one there to give you a guide on how to escape, you feel crazy like as if you’re living in a dark universe within your head and no matter how you try, you can’t explain your sufferings.